When I Don’t Want to Be Me

“I wish I could be just about anyone other than me.” When a friend told me this, it broke my heart. Her despair was understandable. She had been emotionally abused or neglected her entire life–by her father, mother, stepfather, boyfriends, friends, siblings. She was broken and tired. She had been plodding along the road to…

Dealing with the Monster Inside the Boy

We are 19 days into the school year, which means … only 161 more days to go! This is comparable to jumping for joy at crossing the first mile marker in a half-marathon race. What’s worse is realizing three days into the school year that things would have to change for our family to survive…

It’s So Hard to Say Goodbye

“So I’ll take with me the memories To be my sunshine after the rain. It’s so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.” To the unfortunate few who are not familiar with these words, they are a part of the lyrics to the classic Boys II Men song by the same name. My high school graduating…

An Experiment

I began this year participating in a de-cluttering experiment. (Please read more on the January 12th post — 2015 Challenge: De-Clutter http://staletoast.com/2015-challenge-de-clutter/.) The de-cluttering experiment has two basic rules: Rule #1 — Each day, I find one item that I no longer need. This item finds its new home in either the trash can or…

Drifting and Wandering

I shielded my eyes as I kept watch over the black speck that was my son. Hunter was so far out in the water that I could hardly make him out. He was taking a break from diving under the waves, swimming and floating just past the breaking point. His brother couldn’t swim quite yet…

Room to Stretch Out

“Work at telling others the Good News, and fully carry out the ministry God has given you.”‭‭2 Timothy‬ ‭4:5‬b NLT‬‬ Yesterday was a big day in the life of Dan River Church. After nearly six years in our original facility, we moved into a new auditorium. It was a beautiful sight!  Have you ever been…

9 Years Ago…

“Mom, I’m ready for Jesus to be the Boss of me.” This is what my firstborn said to me with determination on his brow nine years ago today. It reminds me of the day I gave birth to him. In the movies, babies are delivered with sweet, angelic faces and the healthy pink of fresh,…

Cinderella at Last

For as long as I can remember, I’ve wanted to be Cinderella. The idea of being swept away by a prince from a life of hardship seemed to be the most beautiful love story of all. I do realize that I am an adult now and shouldn’t dream of such silly things anymore. But is…

The Security of Obedience

A family who zip lines together has fun together. Nope, that’s not how the saying goes, is it? But that is how we roll. (Okay, I’ll stop.) My family just had a great day touring the new Outpost (property Thomas Road Baptist Church owns at the Peaks of Otter). We drove all over the beautiful…

Seasons–Summer Is Coming

Summer is almost here! I think I hear the angels singing the Hallelujah chorus. We pull out our flip-flops and get a pedicure. Of course the boys have grown out of their swim suits so it’s off to the store. The pool toys are rotted from last year. The deck is covered in pollen. The…