Rest in the Beautiful Chaos

Do you ever wish you could shed motherhood like taking off a heavy coat? Hang it on a hook just for a moment while you breathe a sigh of relief from the weight lifted from your shoulders? When I was pregnant, I longed for a moment free of the literal weight of my belly causing…

Distraction or Connection

I open my journal, prepare the Bible app to read a chapter of Scripture, and call out a short prayer: God, I want to hear from You. A whistling interrupts my prayer. I jump up to silence the noise before it wakes the whole house. Tea now brewing … where was I? Oh, right, God,…

Is This Where I Live Now?

“This is where I live now,” said the birthday boy as he collapsed onto the bench. Josiah started off his 16th birthday with a sick stomach just as he was opening his long-awaited presents. Still trying to salvage such a momentous birthday, we headed to his favorite breakfast joint for cinnamon crunch bagels. Though he…

Do Not Disturb

I woke to a buzzing sound. Eyes weighed down with sleep struggled to open. What time is it? No hints of light trickling in around the curtains so it must not be morning yet. My eyes wandered around the room searching for the culprit, the interrupter of sleep. Another buzz. My phone … who is texting…

Low-Maintenance

A dying branch threatens our neighbor’s power line. Tree roots compete with the grass for nutrients; the grass is losing the battle. Bushes stretch beyond intended borders, refusing to be contained in beds of mulch no matter how much they’re trimmed. A cherry blossom tree sprouts gorgeous blooms … for two weeks of the year…

My Valentine

He doesn’t tell me I look tired even when I stumble out of bed, bleary-eyed every morning. He responds to emails and reads the news while he waits for his turn in the bathroom. “Love is patient and kind.” When my best friend drives in for the weekend, he encourages our movie-watching. He provides the…

Smack in the Face

Tears slid down my cheeks, unbidden. Why did they have to come? Pained and bewildered eyes looked down at me. This six-foot teenager tucked me under his chin as he embraced me, not knowing what else to do. But it was all wrong. How could this towering young man be the same creature I lifted…

Who Are You Working For?

“Help! I’m drowning!” Josiah jumped in the pool with his tube and paddled out to the distressed swimmer. Because the woman clothed in a red bathing suit had somehow flipped herself over, Josiah threaded his arms in between her thrashing arms and torso. He pulled her onto her back, resting her upper body on the…

And We Wait

Saturday mornings are for sleeping in and watching cartoons … but not for swimmers. The alarm sounded at an ungodly 5 a.m. I stumbled around doing my Mom thing to get myself ready as well as the things we would need to survive until past noon. We backed out of the driveway in the dark….

A Treasured Gift

The tide splashed over the rocks a few feet away. I retreated several steps. Still, Kaden climbed. At the top of the boulder, he gazed in awe at the last rays of the day sparkling over the water. As the sun continued to dip and the water continued its march inland, I insisted it was…